Break

I can't wait for it to finally end. I still am depressed from what my step dad said and i really want to die. My eyes might permanently stay red from all my crying....I did get to go to the Lil' Wayne concert which was extremely fun but I had to go with me real sister instead of taking Tommy and Rebecca as their christmas present.OH well im gonna go kick my dog outside and shove a granolola bar down my throat.

Christmas!

This Christmas was one of the saddest ones of my entire life... I didn't get to celebrate it with all of my family and I didn't get to even wish my closest friends a merry Christmas. It was actually kind of depressing. But I did get some pretty awesome presents:

1. Fearless CD
2. Twilight soundtrack
3. Edward T-shirt
4. New Moon
5. The Chronicles of Narnia Prince Caspian
6. Two pairs of sketchers
7. Makeup remover
8. Purse
9. Two straighteners
10. clothes
11. American Eagle gift card
12. Visa credit gift card
13. cash

That's it but still it was a fairly good Christmas except for the missing people.

I STILL LOVE AND MISS YOU GUYS LIKE CRAZY!!!!<33333333333333

Just to clear thing up....

I am not an alcoholic or a fucking drugee. So people with no lives who think that it is fair to start shit about my past need to stop. I do have a past and I will not deny any of that because I know I screwed up. I haven't drank in 2 years and all the illegal bull shit is behind me. Now I'm the one paying for it again so I dont need rumorsgoing around saying that i've been sleeping around, getting drunk at parties and a bunch of stupid stuff I know is wrong. I am no longer putting up with it because even though I hang out with people who are older and do that kind of thing I am not someone who is gonna throw my fucking life away. I made that choice a long time ago and I spent a lot of time putting my life back together, something I'm not gonna give up again.

Crying the hardest I have ever cried right now!!!

My step dad found out about Jeff's parties and what my friends and I do at them. So my life is completely ruined... I'm not allowed to talk to any of my friends down here, even Rebbecca. My step dad is so retarded I swear I stopped doing shit a couple weeks ago and I've been clean ever since and I plan on staying that way. But now my blog is the only way I can say goodbye to all my friends from Mount Clemens...

So Rebbecca, Jeff, Tommy, Stacy, J., John, and even Jake I'm super sorry and I will miss all of you. My life seriously won't be the same without all the shit we get into....






Rebbecca,
You are like the coolest person I know and I will miss you the most because you've been with me through everything. Try to stay out of trouble because I can't help anymore if you get in trouble, and take care of Stacy because she really shouldn't have gotten involved with us because she actually had a better choice.


I love you guys SO much!!!!

Crying

Ok I have cried too many times over this guy who has been my closest guy friend for who knows how long. I finally found myself not thinking about HIM for once in school the other day and I guess I stopped seeing HIM in the light of HIM being almost perfect for me in every way shape and form. Then I told my friend Anna because she has known all about the crush ever since it started and was actually relieved. At least that is how she seemed. Then of course with my luck by the end of the day I guess I started liking HIM again and it started off right where I left off liking him. Ugh...I swear I think it is just so hopeless. Especially since I have had 2 different boyfriends and still kept liking HIM through both of those relationships. Then yesturday Tommy asked me to go out with him on a date and of course I said yes because I mean come on he is pretty amazing. Sadly I still think of HIM and am proud of myself for the fact that I spent all of yesturday and most of today with Tommy and havent thought once of HIM. That was until my stupid friend Rebecca decided to ask me "Hey what ever happened to that one guy **********?" Then i just kinda started wirting this blog so yeah.

Newbie

Ok this is like my first blog so im not really sure how this is supposed to go but ill try...
Im like hanging out at Shelby's right now hanging with her and abby. We did karoke and i learned that i cannot sing worth crap...Her dogs are so adorable and im supposed to go to bad awe tomorrow and i really dont want to...we are gonna go see a movie in her room right now and ill be able to fill you in later about my mount clemens friends and all high school dramas my life has to offer.