Crying

Ok I have cried too many times over this guy who has been my closest guy friend for who knows how long. I finally found myself not thinking about HIM for once in school the other day and I guess I stopped seeing HIM in the light of HIM being almost perfect for me in every way shape and form. Then I told my friend Anna because she has known all about the crush ever since it started and was actually relieved. At least that is how she seemed. Then of course with my luck by the end of the day I guess I started liking HIM again and it started off right where I left off liking him. Ugh...I swear I think it is just so hopeless. Especially since I have had 2 different boyfriends and still kept liking HIM through both of those relationships. Then yesturday Tommy asked me to go out with him on a date and of course I said yes because I mean come on he is pretty amazing. Sadly I still think of HIM and am proud of myself for the fact that I spent all of yesturday and most of today with Tommy and havent thought once of HIM. That was until my stupid friend Rebecca decided to ask me "Hey what ever happened to that one guy **********?" Then i just kinda started wirting this blog so yeah.