Oppisites....SUCK!!!

Well lets see...My ex-boyfriend is quite possibly the greatest person I've ever met and is still one of my best friends...This summer was supposed to be amazing for me and I still want it to be. But the fact that for once I still am good friends with one of my ex's, I don't want to ruin in. I'm not gonna regret anything that has happened anymore because its my life and if people want to judge me for my past and things they don't understand its their problem...Now I get ungrounded at home on Tuesday and after my daily walking thing with Gavin and Mackenzie I'm gonna drop off Cassie's birthday present. Then I am just gonna hang out with who ever I can for the rest of the week, Somewhere in there I have plans to hang out with Anthony and we have finally reached some sort of friendship ground...JUST friends, I think. But I still don't know if hanging out with him alone is something I can be good at because I still have well-oh screw it...I still love the kid!!!But I can't put my life on hold for him any longer but I don't want to hurt any body else by leading them on or anything because I might not be able to hang out with him alone without...anyways I dont wanna be a cheater. Not to mention, the sudden shitiness off the fact guys keep asking me out and I keep saying no for all the reasons above...I just want to be 100% sure I'm over Anthony because right now I'm only 67% which could go all the way back to zero if I ever kiss him again which might happen, if he wants it to because I lost a bet and the prize is technically still in effect and will be for a while. YAWN ok I'm tired so night everyone!!!!