MOST AMAZING GUY EVER!!!!!11-23-09

and he is mine after 8 years im talking to jeff again and now we are going out after only a day. He is so sweet and i actually think all my friends would approve of him because he is nice and better then a lot of the guys that i have dated....YAY!!!!!

SUMMER!!!!09

has been great so far...which explains why i havent been on here in a long while. lets see um im trying out for volleyball, getting contacts, to an extent im in a relationship, i quit smoking completely, met a great guy who is a great friend, went to north carolina, got a job, went up north, got a tan, camped, and hung out with multiple people...my dad fiinally caved and im having a prty this week, still in the process of inviting people, working tomorrow, going shopping for school and homecoming...again, ut'll be like my third dress...pathetic rite?well there is this guy who is kinda the relaionship guy who i knew as a total jerk but we've been talking and we plan on getting together and like i havent gone a day without talking to him in over a cuple weeks now, and its kinda intense and wierd but i kinda like the guy, and even b4 that i had already broken my pact with casie about the no guy thing but i told her part of the truth and telling her the rest the next time that i see her which should be next week during tryouts...other then all of that my life is pretty good and sadly i still cant wait for school o well i guess my summer couldnt be perfect l8r!!!

Oppisites....SUCK!!!

Well lets see...My ex-boyfriend is quite possibly the greatest person I've ever met and is still one of my best friends...This summer was supposed to be amazing for me and I still want it to be. But the fact that for once I still am good friends with one of my ex's, I don't want to ruin in. I'm not gonna regret anything that has happened anymore because its my life and if people want to judge me for my past and things they don't understand its their problem...Now I get ungrounded at home on Tuesday and after my daily walking thing with Gavin and Mackenzie I'm gonna drop off Cassie's birthday present. Then I am just gonna hang out with who ever I can for the rest of the week, Somewhere in there I have plans to hang out with Anthony and we have finally reached some sort of friendship ground...JUST friends, I think. But I still don't know if hanging out with him alone is something I can be good at because I still have well-oh screw it...I still love the kid!!!But I can't put my life on hold for him any longer but I don't want to hurt any body else by leading them on or anything because I might not be able to hang out with him alone without...anyways I dont wanna be a cheater. Not to mention, the sudden shitiness off the fact guys keep asking me out and I keep saying no for all the reasons above...I just want to be 100% sure I'm over Anthony because right now I'm only 67% which could go all the way back to zero if I ever kiss him again which might happen, if he wants it to because I lost a bet and the prize is technically still in effect and will be for a while. YAWN ok I'm tired so night everyone!!!!

against all odds

im DONE with everything...screw memphis, screw family, screw stupid ass holes, and screw fucking life. im over everything and i have all summer to practice so when u see me at school no ones gonna fucking no what happened except for the stupid ass hole who finally pushed me over the edge...bcuz i just cant take it anymore i would rather die then go on living life how i have been lately. friends dont ask what happened bcuz i will only get more pissed just go along with it. 2009 will be the year to remember bcuz amy is moving on from all the stupid pathetic drama of fucking life...if anyone has anything to say to me then say it to my face insted of hiding behind my back. and if u talk shit about any of my friends ur ass will be black and blu cuz im not holding back anything. and imma tell u the truth straaight out...no rumors, secrets or bullshit and i plan on staying single until my birfday, im not even gonna have friends with benefits its all or nothing and nothing until my birfday have a nice summer everyone and ill see u in the fall...and anna ill see u in a cuple weeks when i return your dress!

been a while

oh yeah it definately has but I have news on most topics. Mainly these:

1. Tyler...i have come to realize is just using me and needs to go die(meaning ive 100% completed the getting over him stages)
2. School...sucks ass, i am passing but i have one section of summer school this year. but i officially hate high school
3. Guys...are kinda stupid mainly one that I have really never got over and I really dont expect to any time soon but I am gonna try because i dont need him and hes deffinately put me through a lot even if he didnt mean 2
4. Love...is a strange word and ive been talking to this guy lately and yeah i kno i have a thing about switching from this guy to that but i really am starting to like this guy... he is smart, athletic, he makes me laugh even when im grumpy, he is cute, funny, sweet, and makes me feel like im really special!!!

Bipolarness much

Wow my posts have seriously been like really bipolar lately...anyway I'm going out with Mikey now....YAAAAAAAY I love him so much and the cool thing is that no one new I liked him before the day that he asked me out...I am good!And you know what I don't care what people say because I love him and he may not be the hottest guy out there but still I love him!!!!That and I realize I seriously didn't have a life a couple weeks ago and then the whole shit with Justin and then I hung out with Kayelyn and Taylor and Erin and Damon...I was barely home all week and I didn't have shit planned that had to do with school....so yeah Ill be happy for a while now and Damn do I enjoy it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NEWLY FOUND HATE...

I cant trust anyone anymore...I have to be the stupidest/sluttiest little whore ever!I hate my life right now and I probably will for a while. And to the people who made me feel like this they need to go die the most painful death ever...like poosible being choked with their own penis that was castraighted and then burned before they take their last breathe....nothing could calm me down at this point...FUCK MY LIFE...YOU...AND EVERTHING TO DO WITH YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAPPY...

BIRTH-DAY ANNA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay some ppl r definately happy to hear this, others could care less but I hate Memphis so much and I can't do anything here. I have gotten into more trouble here then any other place that I have lived in and I have been through a lot of sh**! So I am starting connections and am practically begging my mom for the okay and am gonna ask my dad if I might be able to move because I hate Memphis that much and I can't stand being here any longer. The stupid small town bull**** is driving me insane!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Secrets and ass holes

I like a couple people at the moment but one is deffinately more liked then the other and its not exactly the person most people would think. It is pretty much my only secret in Memphis and I plan to keep it a secret until the crush goes away. I swear my best friend Rebecca already went through every single guy I've ever mets name...no one will be able to guess it.



Ok Someone{NOT SAYING THE NAME}is 100% hated at our school and apparently she likes it that way...She also claims to be going back to Capac which I just might throw a party for as long as she doesn't come. This is some reasons to hate her, what people use to make fun of her and why ppeople already hate her:

1. She claims to have been a cheerleader and she had absolutely no idea what she was doing
2. She says she is a natural blonde and her roots haven't shown all year.
3. Her hair is totaly fried
4. Her boobs are saggy as hell
5. She wears close that make those saggy boobs pop out way to much
6. She sucks in all of her fat everyday
7. She lies about tanning off and on
8. She thinks she can get whatever she wants
9. She got a couple who didn't like her to start with in a fight
10. Tell's people who they should and shouldn't hang out with
11. She claims to be racist
12. she goes to the counsler for almost everything...[who does that]
13. then turns around and calls someone else a snitch
14. Flirts with other peoples boyfriends while they are suspended
15. Makes certain guys feel like she likes them when she really doesn't which is playing with their feelings which no one has the right to do.....breathe...
16. Makes her hair look like an ugly fried poodle
17. talks shit behind everyone's back and gets all pissed when it happens to her
18. she never shuts up...she loves her own voice
19. she cheated on one of the nicest people in our grade
20. had sex with almost 2 people oin our grade and then made fun of them behind her back
21. started a rumor about herself that her brother raped her when no on cares if it really happened or not

OOO trust me I could go on forever but I choose not to because Im going shopping ...Anyhoo ill see ya guys monday and sorry Anna I swear to god im gonna stop trying to please everyone...even if i have to train myself!lol

OH YEAH IM BLONDE AGAIN!!!!!!!!!

IM HOME!!!!!

vegas trip was fun and i cant wait to see my lovely peoples tomorrow in school so if anyone misses...fear my wrath...jkjk
uhhhhhh
weather was suckish, i didnt even get to where my new bathing suit it was so depressing
seeya

Funny quotes i found

"I did not hit you...I just high fived your face."



"A friend would lend you her umbrella, a best friend would steal yours and yell RUNBITCHRUN!"



"If you were gas in my butt, I would never fart for fear of losing you, because your the shit."



"I just want you to know that if a jellyfish ever stung you, I would pee on you."



"It takes skill to trip over flat surfaces."



"When you call us bitches, we look at each other and crack up laughing because we knew that WAYYYYY before you did."



"Good friends don't let you do stupid things...alone."



"Celebrities walk on the red carpet because they are famous. My friends and I walk on toilet paper because we are the Shit."



"Your birth certificate was an apology letter from the condom factory."



"There is a report of a drunk and a naked person riding a big wheel on main street. Do you need me to come and get you again."



"MENtal anxiety, MENtal breakdowns, MENstrual cramps, MENopause. Have you ever noticed how all our problems start with MEN?"



"If you think I'm screwed up...You should meet the rest of my family."



"I'm prolly the coolest dork you'll ever meet."



"I wish my lawn was EMO, then it would cut itself."



"Some people are like slinkies, they are really good for nothing. But they bring a smile to your face when you push them down a flight of stairs."



"Don't make me go all crazy white girl on you."



"SHHHH...I'm hiding form the stupid people. AW shit I guess you found me."



"Dear Santa, can I have the numbers of the boys on the naughty list?"



"SHORT!Less likely to die in a lightning storm."



I have dis...dislock...dislec. I CANT SPELL!"



"I've built a wall not to keep people out. But to see who loves me enough to climb over it."



"People who don't know me think I'm quiet. People who do wish I was."



"You think I'm a bitch. You should meet my mom."



"Lord give me the strength to accept fucktards I cannot change."



"Don't make someone a priority in your life if your just an option in there's."

"The worst way to miss someone is when they are standing rite next to you and you know you can't have them."

"You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only option you have."

"Just because he is good at lying..doesnt mean you should fall for his bullshit."

"Waiting for you is like waiting for rain in a drought...useless and disapointing."

"Move on. Its a chapter in the past. But dont just close the book, just turn the page."

"Some say holding on is what makes you strong.But sometimes it takes much more strength to just let it go and move on."

"I want to feel your touch on my skin. I want to hear your voice whisper in my ear. I want you to hurt like i have been hurting. I wish fairytales were true because you would have saved my heart not broken it in 2."

"Got a problem with me?solve it.Think IM tripping?tie my shoes.Cant stand me?sit back down.Cant face me?turn around."

"Love at first sight is often cured by taking a second look."

"Your the only reason I'm still singing but when that last song comes your the last note anyone will ever hear...your that unforgetable."

"So many things I want to say...i cant lie or ill laugh but when i tell the truth you walk away."

"I wanted you then I want you now and if I dont love you in the future...You'll know you either fucked up big time or I walked into way to many poles...for your sake you better hope its the poles because Im not worth losing."

LaLaLa....

This weekend is kinda a big deal for me...I am talking to Rebecca again and she is giving me this weird makeover thing. I am so happy for her engagement and I just know that its going to last. Im going with the whole group tonnight to see My Bloody Valentine in 3D. Its the largest group we have ever taken to the movies but I am still gonna have fun. I got some new clothes and a new pair of boots so I am so excited. I got 7 new pairs of boot and some gym clothes for Monday....OMG if you reading this then you so need to go to youtube and look up:Chocolate Rain by Tay Zonday it is hilarious!!!

School sucks

OK well i believe it was like Wednesday when i had Anna tell the guy i like i like him and it was kinda weird...I went to his basketball game and i had a lot of fun hanging out with Abby (p) and Sara(h) Clark and we were laughing and fooling around...listening to hakuna matata.lol anyway he came to sit by us when the JV game was over...we were still fooling around when Abby thew some Swedish fish at Eric and then by third quarter there were Sharpes, and chips, and water bottles being thrown all over that corner. Then over by the back door some weird owengage kid was staring at me it was pretty creepy. Then the very first thing that the guy i like said to me in like three full months was "nobody likes you"


I swear I wanted to go home and get run over by a car it hurt so bad...ugh it still bugs me when i think about it....WA

Hate!

Is a really strong word and you should only use it when you really mean the emotion not just spurr of the moment. Well I don't hate my mom, just what she is making me do. She set me up on a blind date and I have to go. I'm still feeling depressed so I don't want to go but if it will prove to my mom that I don't need antidepressants or a therapist...His name is Ethan(total balding middle aged man name) and he goes to church with my grandma. Apparently there is some kinda new years dance at some place in rochester or romeo and i have to get ll dressed up...i just want to curl up in a ball and pass out...great way to spend the last saturday of break

UGH!!!

I swear to god I might kill myself before Monday. I miss everyone like crazy and it doesn't help that my parents think I'm medically depressed and needs medication...Well I guess that I have been kinda depressed this last week. So much has happened to me that I couldn't control. I've maybe gotten close to three hours of sleep for the past four nights and I'm always freezing. Normally I have naturally strange dreams and now I've had the same one multiple times it is starting to scare me. Special thanks to Anna S. because of her wisdom I learned something that is probably the cause of my traumatic dreams(Baaaah). There has only been two people that I truly want to talk to and not being able to is getting really annoying. Sometimes I wish that I would have just stayed with Chadd to make my life easier. With him it was a lot simpler even with the scarier possibilities of what my life would be right now. I don't want school to start and I don't want break to continue...







I just don't know what to do...I have to make a change in pattern because it's starting to hurt way to much.